Dysfunctional Relationships

Some people are blessed with lifetime relationships.

I am not one of those people.

My friends fluctuate. One moment, I have a great relationship with so and so. The next, that person is no where to be found. Then that person comes back and we continue the friendship.

And can I tell you something? IT REALLY BLOWS.

I've tried the last 10 years to try and get a forever friend. My sister has one. And I remind her everytime I'm with her how lucky she is. Sure, they go through fights and stuff, and they spent the last year apart and they are very different. But they are there for each other. Everyday, thick and thin. Even when they are upset with each other.

I feel like I don't show my true self to anyone, just parts to people, because just in experience, they leave me.

Undergrad

Well, if you didn't know this already. I am a student in the Women's Studies department at my school. And I have shorter than a year left.

So I've been thinking about what I am going to do after my graduation. I know I want to get out of the city I am in but I'm not sure what I want to do.

I don't want to prepare for either the LSAT or the GRE but I want to go to Grad School/Law School. So I am thinking about taking a year off. But I don't want to go home...so I've been thinking about taking a class that certifies me as a TEFL educator. (Teaching English as a Foreign Language) Then I'll apply to schools in Germany to be a teacher for a year or two.

I got myself hooked to this idea. I see no wrong to it. I could get better at German and get some real world experience and be in one of the most beautiful places in the world. =]

So we'll see how this turns out. I'll do more research and see if it is worth it.

Maybe I should Update this one.

I know no one reads this but it is easier to update my life here than in my diary.

It's summer again and I am still in school doing classes. I currently have two jobs: I am a Community Advisor and a Lab Consultant. Right now I am taking 3 classes.

I love learning! Which is why I plan to stay in school as long as I can! My mind goes back and forth between what I want to do. Right now I can't decide if I want to go to Graduate School or Law School.

I know I would do well with either program but I can't decide which one to do. I would really enjoy learning law, but not so much practicing it. I'm thinking that I can go to Law School and then go back to school to become a professor of law. That way I am doing what I love to do: helping students.

But that is my plan so far, with what I would like to do with my degree. Which I also talked about on my blog about academics, here.

I feel like I should explain why I went so long with out updating this regularly. This blog was about being positive despite the hard times. Well, I hit hard times and then I was not positive any longer. I am finally getting back in to my old mindset, it's been a struggle, sometimes a daily one.

I haven't been home since early March and I am so excited that I am going home for a few days next week! I feel like it's gonna be stressful but at the same time I want to see my sister and a few of my friends.